What the heck...Now??

I find myself sitting in a hospital room about 45 minutes away from those I care about most. This has been a tough time in our little families life. We are so blessed and I am so grateful for opportunities that have come our way. Some for fun and others for tremendous growth. (I think I like the fun ones a little more). As you all know from my previous post we just returned from a magical family trip to disneyland. As we were there I started not feeling great, you know just a small cold some chest congestion...really no big deal. Well I guess mixed with the dirty Anaheim air my asthma didn't like it. I don't have bad asthma, just occasional usually set off by allergies and pollutions. It does seem to affect me quite a bit more when I am pregnant. Maybe a puff or two from my inhaler but really that is it. Well by the time we got home I was pretty sick. I didn't feel great throughout the weekend but by monday morning I knew something was wrong. I woke Chad up at 4:00am and told him I was going to drive myself to the emergency room but was concerned about having to pay the copay. My debate was "Am I ok to just wait a few more hours and see my regular doctor or do I pay the $75.00 emergency copay that I really can't spare right now." Chad immediately made that decision for me and sent me to the ER. While there I received three breathing treatments, well because I am pregnant they were concerned about doing anything else for me and didn't really know how to handle my situation. So they sent me home and told me to call my OB by noon if I wasn't feeling better. Well by 10:00am I knew I wasn't feeling better. So a phone call I made and off I was to my OB who is 45 minutes away but worth the travel!!! Well he took one look at me, listened to my breathing and was ticked that I was ever aloud to leave the hospital. He immediately admitted me and told me later that I had him quite concerned, I was not moving any air in or out of my lungs. The hospital staff hooked me up to monitors and IVs and breathing machines. So now almost five days later I am still here. Doing much better but still here. While I have been here all of my sisters have been in town to be with my dad, which I have not been able to be apart of and the rareity of all 5 sister together is real. It's very hard for all of us to be in one place. But I am forever grateful for my sisters and their ability to help my mom out at this time when I have become unavailable. Since I have been hospitalized Chad has put on two birthday parties one for Sydney with 10 little girls at the swimming pool. (thanks to Andrea and Lisa for their help with cupcakes and supervision) and a party for Kalli with 20 little girls playing games and eating dinner at our house. (Chad is an over acheiver. He over compensates for things that are out of his control so his kids don't feel left out. I told him that the parties could wait until next week but for him the thought of the kids not only having their mom in the hospital but to not get to do their birthday parties was just too much for this kind, loving over acheiving father.) Chad has also been running around town trying to figure out work since the company he has been working for, Beneficial Financial Group is shutting their doors as of August 31. He has some great possibilities out there and some options but needless to say this has been weighing on our minds. Not to mention that he is the bishop of our ward and has many responsibilities waiting for him in that area. We have been so blessed with lovely, wonderful friends and ward members who have just helped out in so many ways, from helping with parties, to cleaning our house, to bringing in dinners and helping with kids. And for me, I am going NUTS just sitting here listening to the craziness of our lives and not being able to do anything about it! Plus the meds they have me on make me incredibly emmotional, I cry every time the phone rings. The doctor says I need to treat myself as if I am an infant with RSV, he told me to not go to church for a while, advoid any smoke (fireworks) and stay inside as much as possible. Sounds like a fun summer huh! I am just so grateful to have a husband who is a doer and does not let anything get in his way, he may have a few panic attacks before this is all over but he does it all with a smile and he does it all for me and our kids. What a blessing he is to me.